Next to a ranchers wife the hardest job I do is being a mom. As you know I sent my first born off to college this past week and it has been very ruff! I just want to go get her and bring her home, but I know that would not be the best thing for her. She needs to know that she can do this and that there is life outside of this ranch and her upstairs. I dont know if anyone knows what it feels like unless you are a mom. It is one of the hardest things I have ever done and one of the most rewarding things I have done and will continue to do. I get up in the morning thinking about what to do that will make my kids life better. My rancher he gets up in the morning worring about how to make the day work with all the things he has to do. How do they seperate the 2, well I guess someone needs to, because it isnt going to be me. I put my kids first my business 2nd that is just the way I am made. I find myself thinking about her every minute of the day. I dont know if my rancher does that or not, I wish he would say. I guess thats the cowboy in the rancher that keeps him from talking about what he is thinking. My life right now couldnt be any better, but I have an empty spot, how do you feel that loss. She isnt gone she is just not with me everyday. Wow how do you get past that?
Until next time.